No smoking

My parents actually doesn't know that I was smoking. Only my friends know that I'm an occasional smoker, if there is such a term. I never really liked smoking but it somehow relaxes me whenever I feel nervous and it makes me all hyped. I only smoke when we go on clubs. Yes, I drink and smoke at the same time which is really bad for my health. But I just ignore it for a night and I just have fun.

I only smoke three brands of cigarette.

Marlboro Lights whenever were on club. I don't bring cigs in our house to keep because it would be easily seen by the maid and my grandmother. I sometimes use this too on school when I have a vacant time or before some presentations to cool and calm me down.

Black Bat. This is what I usually use in school because it leaves no smell on my mouth and it can be easily covered by a menthol candy. It saves me from getting caught by my boyfriend.

Esse. I could only use this when my mother comes home from abroad. This was her favorite cigarette aside from Phillip Morris. It saves me from going to a faraway store that doesn't know me so I could buy some cigarette. I like this cigarette because it was really thin and it looks really cute.

Frankly, I don't like people smoking. Its ironic I know because I smoke. Actually, I don't want to see my boyfriend smoke cigarettes. I thought it would be impossible at first because I know he's a good guy. But I saw him smoking during my 18th birthday and when I approached him, he hid the cigarette at his back and he can't speak to me because he haven't released the smoke from his mouth. He seemed a little ashamed at first until I told him it was okay. He doesn't know I was smoking. I thought it would be fair to let him so I said it was okay as long as he doesn't smoke in front of me. Then he told me that he promise to stop smoking. I told him its okay if he smokes but he insisted that he would stop for me. He even shaked my hand to make it into a  formal agreement. With that, I decided to stop smoking too. I don't want to be unfair to him so I am resisting as hard as I could. From whatever that day was onward, I'm a non-smoking person. 

My friends who knew I was smoking would probably laugh at me if they read this. Whatever. Things I could for him. Lol.