Reminiscing December

Taylor Swift - Back to December

The first time I heard of the song, it reminded me of my past relationship that ended in December. I currently having LSS with this song and so it made me reminisce the past.

In this song, the girl was saying sorry to the guy about some particular incident that happened in December, which is breaking up with him for no good reason. The girl then later realizes that she love the guy and she was asking for a second chance if possible. 

My story was different of course. I loved a guy when I was 14 and he was 21 at the time. I met him in some text networking channel where people post their cellphone numbers and it will be shown in the TV for the public to see. I know that I'm just a kid but we connect to a million of stuffs. I'm not really childish or immature when it comes to relationship. I remember him teasing me over the phone that I act and talk like I was the same age with him. Well, I get a little immature every now and then but he's also a little childish so its not really a big deal. It came to a time that my family knew about my secret boyfriend. My mother was not against it. She was actually speaking to the guy and they get along well. But my grandmother and other relatives were against it. It even came to a time that rumors were spread about me that my secret boyfriend and I were having sex and I would be pregnant soon. He love me and I can feel it and I loved him too. But I'm still a kid and I didn't fight for him. On the month of December, before Christmas, I spoke to him and told him that I can't take it any longer. He was crying over the phone and I told him that it was over for us.

Everytime I hear the song, I remember him. I want to say sorry to him for what I did to him. Just like what the song says, "He gave me all his love and all I gave was goodbye.". I want to apologize to him for not fighting for him and for becoming weak. I'm still a kid that time and I can't help it if I get scared. But I wouldn't be asking for a second chance. Just forgiveness. Somehow, that break-up made our lives better. Maybe we were just not meant to be with each other. I know he is happy now and I am too. If I fought for us before, would we be happy? Would we still be together? Maybe its just meant to be this way. Just friends. Besides, if not for that break-up, I wouldn't end up to my love today. My present boyfriend whom I love so deeply and my future.